life's a bitch.

BlurBoiboiSebastian told me smth at the airport the last time,

"Its the same person who would make you laugh and cry as much."

it was smth like that.
i wished i would have written it down.
it seriously hit me hard i dunno why-
and it sorta came back to me again this particular night.

perhaps my love life's pretty much in the dumps.
damn i hear so much goss and stuff from my buddies nightly sometimes i feel so empty.
no don't get me wrong i'm really happy for them.
really my lovelies, i really am happy and proud of you guys ((:
and am looking forward to more hot goss.
it's just that when everyone's enveloped in love,
it's weird.

i don't wanna be aunt agony anymore.

i wanna see them happy getting the girl/guy they want.
i want those people i hung out during the first week of college back.

not that im not laughing enough and not having fun.
but yuh,
things are different.
crushes are all over college,
and valentine's day coming so everyone's getting emo.

what's wrong with spending V'day with your closest buddies.
if my NPK's were here i would have rented a limo, packed with beer and plush toys,
go to the beach and go skinny dipping or smth with them.

it strucked me that i really do miss them though i've probably made some awesome friends here.

i wish that i could IM them without any interruption and hiatus.
i wish we could talk the way we do in school and laugh at horny jokes all day long.
i miss how we would gather in a group at the Dirty Corner and piss ourselves laughing.

i wish that Media Studies's the only subject i have.
only cz i topped the class in the last assignment and Steve was praising me a hell lot last thursday.


In conclusion,
life's a bitch.
and like what i told my dear Nenepok,
if your life's a bitch, mine's a whore with STD and a rotting you-know-what.

i miss happy posts.
its just that windy and cold nights gets me thinking alot.
i don't like it.