sofuckedupitsbeyondcomprehension.

i like being single.
unattached, really.

i crush on too many people in a short period of time.
then move on so quicky my best friends have lost count.
i thought it was just good fun.
crushes and that cute guy and all that jazz.

but after a particular phone call,
i curled up under my blanket, watched the rain pouring down outside,
unable to go back to sleep,reflecting on everything and everyone.

im just afraid to be emotionally tied down.
im afraid that i'd find out that it just isn't right once im in it.
i'm afraid we'll just lose interest in each other.
i'm afraid of breakups and being so awkward around each other.

it's nice having someone there i know,
then it hit me.
im commitment phobic.
not because i don't wanna get hurt again.
thats a fucken load of bull.

im just not brave enough to test the waters.
cz im fucken sissy like that ):

oxox